My little girl wants her mommy back

As she began to blossom in my tummy I told my self I will not repeat my families boozed out history.
I will love and nourish her
I will be all I can be
When I saw her sweet face for the first time I was sure I conquered my deepest fear...
Avoiding what hurt me so much
Three years later I am what I never wanted to be
I can hear her cries " mommy, mommy, where are you going?"
I looked right through her with a pain in my heart
I walked out the door, I drank my self to a pitiful state only to find her waiting by my bed, "mommy , can we play a game?"
Mommy can't play a game because shes sick
Treatment centers, hospitals, and jails
Mommy is back to hurt her delicate heart once more
I never wanted to be what I became