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Thrilling, Terrifying Change
Why, again, do I have to choose
When for most, my age,
the time for choosing is over?
Decisions once thought concrete
prove to be thin ice thawing.
A life planned, practically, womb to tomb
until fickle fate bursts into the room.
Exhausted, trying to convince others of my worth
once imagined self-evident.
Selling myself when I thought
all sales were final.
My edge, getting duller,
begrudgingly cuts through
a new morass of tedious red-tape.
And if love comes knocking,
again, on my door
perhaps I’ll slice into
newly baked wedding cake
When for most, my age,
the time for choosing is over?
Decisions once thought concrete
prove to be thin ice thawing.
A life planned, practically, womb to tomb
until fickle fate bursts into the room.
Exhausted, trying to convince others of my worth
once imagined self-evident.
Selling myself when I thought
all sales were final.
My edge, getting duller,
begrudgingly cuts through
a new morass of tedious red-tape.
And if love comes knocking,
again, on my door
perhaps I’ll slice into
newly baked wedding cake
Published 7th Apr 2023
Author's Note
NaPo 2023 #6. Just trying to make sense of my new life adventure.
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7th Apr 2023 2:23am
Well, it's good that you see it as an adventure. It sounds disorienting. On the other hand, you could be stuck without any choices...
I love the optimistic ending.
❤️k
I love the optimistic ending.
❤️k
18th Apr 2023 2:39am
K, I appreciate, more than you probably realize, your words of comfort. Believe me it is disorienting...I feel very much as if I am in limbo. I am thrilled with your realty check that I am lucky to have choices.🥰🌹
7th Apr 2023 3:07am
It is something so relatable to us, as life seems to change so quickly as we get older, things become more difficult, wisdom, hopefully, replaces that headlong vim as we threw ourselves into everything with abandon.
18th Apr 2023 2:48am
So when does this fabled wisdom kick in?😁 I fear being left vim and vigorless. My son announced on my 6th birthday that I'm officially old...my reply..jeez thanks for the gift. Yesterday my knees hurt so much I resorted to my skipole-like cane. But with friends/brothers like you I have the courage to soldier on. Thank you!
18th Apr 2023 7:16pm
lol same here, ibuprofen and tylenol become your wingmen as middle age sets in.
18th Apr 2023 9:53pm
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18th Apr 2023 2:53am
Thank you, Brandy for your kind words of encouragement. I love your ripple analogy...I'll adjust to accommodate the exciting new ripples🥰 I adore your words regarding worth..the proof is indeed in the pudding...vanilla with banana if at all possible.😉
17th Apr 2023 3:29pm
do i need to aggressively tell you what you are worth {?}
because i will
i am a hype monster.
//
change will give you vertigo, my friend
i hope you find your center of balance soon
♡
because i will
i am a hype monster.
//
change will give you vertigo, my friend
i hope you find your center of balance soon
♡
18th Apr 2023 2:58am
Dearest, Katja I absolutely adore when you get agressive🥰😉 Bring it on beautiful hype monster. The vertigo Malory makes the soles of my feet tingle and gives me the push I need to fly. I don't know, would blanche be too boring?😁💞🌹
