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The sorrows of a mother’s heart
The sorrows of a mother’s heart
sometimes are too numerous to count.
The disappointment is insurmountable
when it is your children who bring it about.
A single parent lives trying to make up
for what this child’s life might lack,
consoling themselves with a waterfall of tears
caused by the pain and guilt carried on their back.
I have wept many a bitter tear
berating myself for not being stronger,
smarter, lacking courage or so full of fear.
I gave my children in recompense, my youth
and love, extinguishing any dreams, a disparager.
They were always first, an irrefutable truth,
always keeping in mind:
“the sin of the father shall be visited upon the sons”
So in silence I have bared my cross for things I had done.
As they grew I tried to impart wisdom and encouragement,
for a moment they the held promise of turning out well,
but as they hit young adulthood the illusion dispelled,
the iron hand of disappointment struck it’s blow
and the reign of sorrows inevitably became the norm.
Where did I go wrong, what did I not do?
The questions pile up but the answer is obscure,
try as I might it feels like a losing battle
my children are on a fast track to destruction
and I, bystander useless to affect the outcome.
My heart wails its grief to the silent night,
“father why have you forsaken me!”
I tried and tried and yet I failed,
my children will pay the price for the iniquity
of not having been enough of a parent,
unable to lead them into life’s future in victory.
My children will hate me and the legacy they inherit
and I will go to my grave mourning my failure as a parent.
I will always pray for my children and for their forgiveness
hoping they realize it was hard without a counterpart
and from the abyss of endless night I shall weep,
the sorrows of a mothers broken heart.
*
"Oh my children, how my heart for you has wept!"
Gypsy red
April 2012
sometimes are too numerous to count.
The disappointment is insurmountable
when it is your children who bring it about.
A single parent lives trying to make up
for what this child’s life might lack,
consoling themselves with a waterfall of tears
caused by the pain and guilt carried on their back.
I have wept many a bitter tear
berating myself for not being stronger,
smarter, lacking courage or so full of fear.
I gave my children in recompense, my youth
and love, extinguishing any dreams, a disparager.
They were always first, an irrefutable truth,
always keeping in mind:
“the sin of the father shall be visited upon the sons”
So in silence I have bared my cross for things I had done.
As they grew I tried to impart wisdom and encouragement,
for a moment they the held promise of turning out well,
but as they hit young adulthood the illusion dispelled,
the iron hand of disappointment struck it’s blow
and the reign of sorrows inevitably became the norm.
Where did I go wrong, what did I not do?
The questions pile up but the answer is obscure,
try as I might it feels like a losing battle
my children are on a fast track to destruction
and I, bystander useless to affect the outcome.
My heart wails its grief to the silent night,
“father why have you forsaken me!”
I tried and tried and yet I failed,
my children will pay the price for the iniquity
of not having been enough of a parent,
unable to lead them into life’s future in victory.
My children will hate me and the legacy they inherit
and I will go to my grave mourning my failure as a parent.
I will always pray for my children and for their forgiveness
hoping they realize it was hard without a counterpart
and from the abyss of endless night I shall weep,
the sorrows of a mothers broken heart.
*
"Oh my children, how my heart for you has wept!"
Gypsy red
April 2012
Published 9th Apr 2012
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9th Apr 2012 6:30pm
Oh my word, so sad!!!!!!!!!!!! So many parents will struggle with situations that they can rarely actually control, but stand to take the burden of the blame, not letting their children know what appears to be a worser truth!!!!!!!!!!! And this was written so beautifully and heartfelt!!!!!!!!!!
9th Apr 2012 8:21pm
Thank you so much Lee, this is a very personal piece born of true mother's grief.
Gypsy red
Gypsy red
9th Apr 2012 7:31pm
Any parent reading this will completely understand the words you say. One heck of a write this is.
9th Apr 2012 8:28pm
Yes I imagine they would, because no matter what part of the world we are from or what our differences may be, the love and aspirations we have for our children is always the same.
I have to admit this piece lacks finesse, but it was written with raw emotion and many tears, I am sad you could relate my dear Harlequin and glad you took the time to read and comment. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Gypsy red
I have to admit this piece lacks finesse, but it was written with raw emotion and many tears, I am sad you could relate my dear Harlequin and glad you took the time to read and comment. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Gypsy red
Anonymous
10th Apr 2012 6:43pm
You wrote an excellent poem...which shook me to the core...the guilt of having let your children down...no mother does that deliberately...it is very very hard to raise kids alone....whatever happens is not all your fault....The rate of divorce is 50% in Canada and USA....the children are its victims....and the lack of support the mother gets is ridiculous....men can get away with not supporting their own children.....
The raw emotion and tears made this poem all the more powerful
Finesse would have diminished it
Kitty
The raw emotion and tears made this poem all the more powerful
Finesse would have diminished it
Kitty
10th Apr 2012 7:05pm
To say thank you is not enough, this piece displayed one of my greatest weaknesses, my children. You are so right not only do we get very little support from our government and communities but even our families(I am of a catholic background and they frown on divorce)So I was truly alone with my babies to fend for myself; although the pain is ever present it has also made me strong as nails. I am still standing.Thank you dear Kitty for your kindness.
10th Apr 2012 9:57pm
I've felt this pain as a parent..we can only do our best and reading this poem I know you have beautiful lady..soul touching poem!!! peace Crim
10th Apr 2012 9:59pm
Thank you so much dear heart, I hope that everything turns out for the best.
Gypsy red
Gypsy red
11th Apr 2012 3:13am
I do not have children, but the last two women I've dated both did, and It was heartbreaking to see them go through what you have delicately described here. I tried to tell them they were amazing, and they trully were, but to know avail...As you have this depth and insight Im sure you are too
11th Apr 2012 12:34pm
Thank so very much for the generous comment and your kind words.
gypsy red
gypsy red
18th Apr 2012 1:53am
I, too, am a parent. My two children have latgely rejected me. But I don't look at this as sad or sorrowful, because this (hopefully) will lead to their maturity, one day. There were times I was not a good parent, but who is? Hopefully this will contribute something grand to my "waking up."
19th Apr 2012 3:07pm
Thank you, and good luck with your endeavors it is never too late if your heart is right.
Gypsy red
Gypsy red
21st Apr 2014 7:51pm
28th Apr 2014 1:13pm
Thank you Bobbi sorry to hear you can relate, the good thing is nothing bad lasts forever.
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