The Illusion of Paradise

Paint the scene in your head
He cuts his red roses next door
While I’m here confined to my porch
Bored and trying to survive
I’m jealous of the clouds
They never get stuck in a small town

Stray cats jumping over the fences
Nobody understands
Why I want to join them  

I want to be as free as the wind
I want more than flowers for friends
These thin walls
Were supposed to keep me safe
But I’m suffocating
From pretending every day isn’t the same
Get me out before it’s too late
I think I’m going insane

Take a picture of my mind
I’m high and sleeping on the roof
Watching the birds fly by all afternoon
I’m as bruised as the twilight sky
I’m dying trying to catch the stars
Falling in the dark every night

Stray dogs run under the fences
Nobody understands
Why I want to join them

I want to be as free as the wind
I want more than flowers for friends
These thin walls
Were supposed to keep me safe
But I’m suffocating
From pretending every day isn’t the same
You didn’t save me and now it’s too late
I think I’ve gone insane

 
I never want to leave
I’m in love with the trees
My cell is the only place I find peace
Here I’m safe from everyone else’s hell
And people who make me hate myself
So leave me alone I don’t need help