Outside In

So, to make the story short...
I fell apart  
But, I can't let this happen again
Still looking for my fresh start
It's the concrete of the world
That's had me incarcerated
But I escaped from the obsession  
Of this game I've participated
 
The fences I've jumped
Only lead me to a cage  
But I've unscrewed the bolts  
Of my fiery rage  
Reminising on the childhood  
I never really knew
With trying to keep the family together  
Without having any glue
 
She was a horrible friend
However, the only thing I knew
She handed me a drink to "stay calm"
And somehow, I felt used
Because I never wanted to swing  
But then, there they laid
Ashamed of my blackout  
Being only 12 and starting to fade  
 
I've learned my lessons  
Yes, way more than one  
I'll wipe away all the clouds  
Just to see the sun
I'll look into the box
Just to find a way out
Then, I'll turn my thoughts into whispers
So, no one can hear them screaming so loud