Falling

I’m having many intrusive thoughts
My train is making virtual stops
I’m afraid to speak my mind
When it’s lying down a fine-line
Lots of words I cannot say
Frightens me that’ll lead me astray
Scared of my own brain and feelings
Emotional manipulation under concrete ceilings

Falling, just falling
Until I’m buried alive
Bathing, just bathing
Until I’m burned alive

I should be reduced, remade until
I learn to escape my mind, your will
Forgetting my past as sacrilege
Feeling my memories hemorrhage

Hiding myself away - Fly down to the day
Social absentee - Flagrant hypocrisy
Regrettable voice - I always had a choice
I never know what to say - I hate that I decided that way