Re-Sick

Walking alone among the bookshelves
Into my soul my mentality delves
I'm numb enough to fall asleep
I want to kill it all to peaceful keep
Time passes cyclically, never-ending pain
Hide behind old and evil beaten name
Fading creativity in blank mind
Who never said my self is fine

I feel sick in my muscles
Fading sea-sick apostles
My body is revolting
My feathers continually molting

My brain is sore from being awake
I'll put on my face, symbolically fake
Breathe through discomfort life
Smiles of dishonesty, trouble lies

Am I prentending to hurt
When my throat tightens, lurch
Listen my fainting beat
Treat my ailment, forging heat