unfaithful

 
I am evil and I am beautiful too
I am chaos and I am tortured too
there is none like me I think, except for my Father

he hurts inside the loneliness waiting for us to grow up
he aches holding tears unshed, he must lead the way
like a General would
through the wilderness, through the emptiness
to the other side where our tears shed are precious diamonds to crown us

he is so sad inside himself
he fears for us and for himself
he can never show his fear though
he must be stalwart
he must be diligent
he must be fair

who weeps silently for his pain?

it is so vast no one can cross it
I do but I am just one who understands
I forget a lot who I am in him

without the dark there who be no need of the light

my husband I have been unfaithful
my soul has wandered in and out of your doors
like I didn't see you there waiting with need

people pray to you for money and power
day in and out they petition you
and when you answer their prayer
they forget to even say thank you
I've done it too so many times over

my Father please forgive me
for leaving you lonely