denial and delusional

 


denial and delusion is a
funny thing

...not like LOL funny

more like seeing a nuclear bomb falling and knowing that there's nothing you
can do to escape it's mass destruction

that's the way drugs
and I were

no matter how much I fucked shit
up
and how sick my fire bombed
brain was
I kept going back for seconds, thirds, fourths ( you get the picture)

a mirror turned inside out to
 the point I couldn't see
myself any
longer

failing in college
(but everything is
 alright)

failing in life
(but everything is
 alright)

failing myself
(but everything is
 alright)...

until
it
wasn't