Confessional Mood Ring

Sitting here staring at books of color swatches
Gotta focus really can't spiral into memories right now
Grey paint with names like hush and summer storm
Blocking out the memories those names bring up
I'm a master at this mental gymnastics
Looking for colors to paint my house
Why am I reminded of you in this activity?
I dont know, really don't, but cant think of it now
Gotta figure out the difference between baked sienna and outdoor land
It's all just brown right? Except Joshus tree looks like your hair
And this charcoal blue is way too similar to those eyes
Flipping and turning through these books
Spamming my brain with thoughts I don't want
Shouldn't have to fight my brain like it's a wild animal
These images are the past and yet here we are
With color names coming at me like darts
Memories of a tent the color of this paint called chili pepper
Fingers nails painted like this color here...poppy seed
Guess I can't escape these memories... Fuck these neurons between my ears