Relative Orbital

Some days I catch myself flying in my dreams
Listening to songs I think remind me of lost leaves
I soar to the end waiting for new tomorrow
Leaving my life to be a brand new sorrow

Your gravity pulls me back in
I imagine it all, fortunate sin
Bleeding hearts sob, as if we care
Saying "goodnight" still leaves me bare

When I see myself flaying over vacant seas
I notice my life is powered by your trees
Maybe I'm just too self-centered to let go
I wish I could explain maybe actually let you know

Disappointment shudders my wings
My galactic call ceases to sing
I look to the horizon for the day
I'll never know what you would say
Perhaps my Capgras is growing strong
Or my dreams have become interminably long
I think back on your personal history
Was anything real? Lean over and kiss me

I'm waiting in fear, as if I was your fault
You're living with yourself, I've called whether or not
I'm selfish and loathsome could I see the new light
Looking back as a bird, I can begin in clear sight