Shell Shine

Does my light exist within the Earth Shine?
I wish I could be personality blind
My hatred face inward, I'm afraid of my end
I can see my conclusion around the bend
I feel my moon illusion growing strong
I avoid all mirrors to say I belong
I only recognize myself when I'm alone
Do I fear being heard on the phone?

Good morning, moonlight
I'm trapped in the night
My honest truth burns a blight
I only laugh when I fly a kite

I'll hide within my shut-in-shell
Please don't ask why, I'll die as well
I cannot forgive, I cannot forget
My memories feel like a friendship debt
I wonder where I learned my habits
Knowledge of my knowledge seem to come from debits
My breathing feels shallow, my mind is floating
My river of blood now leads to budding