Pain Runs Deep

I remember many times I tried to end my life
But I never really knew what it was like to have life
Until the day I saw my face and opened up my eyes
It's been a few years but it feels right
I'm trying to keep my feelings to myself
And i've been trying to keep my feelings down low
And i've been trying to build my dreams to fill my hopes
So when you see me at the crossroads
I'm a lost soul
Only the lord knows where I’m gonna go
I cant fake my ways and I don't trust these hoes
I don't do no fake love
Gotta stay on my toes
So I pray every day
Every time that I see you around I'm goin crazed
That I may end up in the grave
Every day I get saved
These hard bars make me feel like it's my last day
They take my life away like it's my last days
Before I go on stage
I make sure I say my grace
And I pray my soul will never be the same
I make sure I'm the best rapper that ever came
And I know that I don't ever let a mic go to waste
So I never take a break
I just take my time and I don't have a fake
I just keep it real and tell these people straight
They just mad 'cause I'm doin too much
Trying hard to fight the urge when it comes to us
We gotta have a little love