humility

 
depression has beset me
I am in her grip
she holds me tight this feeling

the day is bright and yet I'm denied entry
so I skulk in the shadows
cursing the need not being filled
a fiend of course no desire to explain

it hurts this craving
makes me feel less than
beholden even

the sun spins and so do I
something's missing in the brain chemistry
the quotient that helps me keep my shit
in my silent days I query, why

my pride aches
I don't want to need anyone
I'm impatient
I complain
I feel impotent

I grumble with the knowledge might makes right on Earth
if you have power people are beholden to you
God almighty in his wisdom chose to teach me humility

I can tell you the lesson isn't going well
I'm still prideful for all my misery