How can I feel Loved

How can we love and make love,
When you think of him,
Thrusting deep, your infidelity makes me soft as i think.
So fucking hot but your lies turn me off,
You think i don't know,
3 hours isnt a drive home,
But was a chance not to be a dd but your freedom to roam.
As the saying goes:
Real eyes
Realize
Real lies
And with that said
The biggest lie
Was when you told me
I Love you
You say friendly chatter,
And it breaks my heart,
Because you broke promises
And should of never met him from the start.
You say i was your everything,
But you act like his mistress,
How can i feel loved,
When you read me his message,
How can i feel loved,
When you look at me and click send everytime,
How can i feel loved,
When you say you're sorry and continue to do what you do,
How can i feel loved,
When he says he is calling,
How can i feel loved,
When you hurt me so much.