I’d Prefer To Not Live Without You

The words won’t come
And I don’t want to try
When I do I start to think
About my old life
I get caught up in the rain
And want to cry


I don’t know what to do
I’m falling apart
And I miss you


You didn’t want to leave
And I don’t want you to feel bad
So I’ve been trying not to be sad
Splitting my head in half
A window between the good
And the dark thoughts I hate I have
I’m sorry
Though I know you wouldn’t be mad


I was hiding from the past
Then they started to laugh
And it shattered my glass
All my feelings came rushing back
I wanted to scream
Feeling my heart crack


I’m trying and it’s not working
I’m tired of all this hurting
I’ve felt like this forever
But you made it better
And now you’re gone
And I can’t move on