Reflections (part 1 of2)

It's been 20 years since we made our commitment.
20 years of memories turned to resentment.
I looked into your eyes one day, and knew you've shamed us.
I asked...
And you blamed US.
There's no denying, no lying.
Only anger, hatred, sadness, and pain.
What can I gain?!
Yelling, screaming.
Thoughts racing through my head.
What did I do so wrong?!
My feelings are now nothing but dead...
I'm Numb...
How could you choose such scum?!
I gave you my all, my total devotion.
Thinking about it over and over.
I've lost all my emotion.
Looking in the mirror,
A dark and dingy reflection could not be any clearer.
Losing my breath, the pain in my chest.
I take a step back. Re-evaluate.
Take control.
Time for an ultimatum.
Choose me, choose us.
Please, I'm on my knees!
Beggin..
Hesitation???
You still have no clue?!
Fine then.
I'll make the decision for you.
Idios my friend,
I guess it was never me you'd pick in the end.