All I Never Wanted

Kaleidoscopic Asshole
Solipsistic synergy
You never loved what I could be
Fed me lies, stifled my cries
Ignored all that, that you did see

When I drove back home from yours
I feared what he had taken from those
Maybe you told me a fable
Or maybe it was him being unstable
My selfish brain lashes out
Why couldn’t I know, casting doubt
Were we ever really friends
Or was I a scapegoat for loose split-ends

How fucking selfish of me
To constantly presume myself to be
One you could trust so honestly
I know now you only lied to me
You stole a story to be told
I presumed to be a confidant, bold
We planned on being close when we grew old
But I was alone when I consoled

The rest of us all dragged along
For we really never displayed strong
We misfits, but un-special time
My perfect, selfish, vacant mind

Unspecified emotional pained
But fear is always feigned
Only you who contradicts true
Eating soul, consume taboo

But I’m the one who is wrong
I challenged the end, not all along
Stayed around to help someone else
But escaped I did from your mess

All of this is not your fault
Especially his of you assault
You needed help I couldn’t provide
But his advantage you couldn’t confide
Im sorry I couldn’t do more
So I cut my social umbilical cord
I left you out, into the dust
Your reaction reaffirmed my readjust