my own cheating heart

 
my heart turns to you, again
I feel you but can't see you
in my soul keen for what it can't touch
my honesty aches and my sincerity hurts
I can hide nothing from you

my secret love letters are no secret
everyone knows my love is promised to the cold stone hard man
who in masculinity keep watches on stoically just out of reach
while I burn deep inside

for fucks sake why?

inside me die for your caress
to hear you desire me as deeply
brash are my words
brazen is my truth

I hate my need it talks too much
of nonsense, you could never be mine
insulted gentleness recoils from the facts

a slap in the face
for me, the one who longs
holding out for understanding

echoes loneliness
crying please, just hold me