MY CONFESSION TO GOD

Through all my hardships through all my hurt through all my pain.
God was always there,he saw every tear i dropped again & again.
Although i was ridin' with natas every year before 1996.
That was the year i got witnessed to, no longer praising the triple 6.
I believe in my lord,my savior even though at times i feel as though i have lost my way.
Day after day i would fall,forget to be holy and wise.
Day after day i continued to hang around those who were the devil in disguise.
The drinkin' the smokin' the lyin' the stealin' the fornicatin'
no sin is greater than the next,in god's eye's all sin is the same.
Now that i'm older none of my past deeds weren't worth it.
I also know for a fact if i woulda died before i got saved,i'd be goin' to hell no doubt about it.
I'm tryin' to hang on,i keep on askin' God's forgiveness for the sins i presently commit.
Always sayin to god i'm done with commiting this sin and that sin.
All i do know is i'm so sick & tired of lyin' to god again & again.
I know my life needs a changin'.
I know my soul needs a cleansin'.
All my troubles i feel are tearin' me apart.
Regardless still i have Jesus in my heart.
And no matter what i say & do my lord jesus loves me.
He is my best friend,he comforts me in my time of need.
When i feel sad,depressed and lonely i open my bible and give it a read.
Any day any time if my lord,my god asked me.
My lord,my god i offer my l-i-f-e.
The closer i get to god,the closer natas and his demons would come callin'.
God please help me i feel as if into hell i am fallin'.
Watch over me in these times of desperation,my lord.
I grow weary of living this way,and from time to time i still live by the sword.
I just pray daily that i don't die by the sword.
If god comes for me now i know i will not be afraid,for i am ready to meet him.
Ready to leave this earth and be with him in heaven.
No more pain,no more sorrow,no more tears,and no more sin.
I don't just pray once or twice a day,i pray in a dark room all by myself.
Sometimes in public,people see me prayin to god,thinkin' i'm crazy just a talkin' to myself.
i use to have doubts about god and heaven.
One of my fave biblical verses is in "EXODUS 18:11.
I daily call on the lord to speak to me.
I'll always love you Jesus,i just can't wait till face to face we shall meet.
Your love is always unconditional,no matter my faults,my sins.
Family & so-called friends think i'm crazy & twisted now that i tell them i have accepted Jesus as my lord & savior.Thank you my Lord,My God for always Listening to me. AMEN!!!!!