Ideation

She told me that everything was going to be alright
If I just took some pills, pills that would put me to sleep forever
She told me eternal sleep would help unravel a mind that runs so rapid
She promised no more pain and that everything would be ok
I took her pills and lay to die and she didn't free me
From this prison of endless pain
Where my soul seems to always lie

Pain from the past, pain from the present, pain from the future
There is no way out of this glass prison,
No weapon to bring the walls crumbling down
I can't breathe in this prison, I'm lost and afraid
Confused and defeated, no more energy to fight her
She is winning this war and she knows it

I lose myself more and more
She knows they anchor me and she goes after the memories I have of them
Pressing on the pain that was already there and the fear of what their future will be

Even in this pain, I love them, even in this prison they are my light
I beg for her to let me go and she clings to me even more
What is this prison that I can't be free

Just when I believe I am, she shows her face again
In the end, I must fight and victory will be within my reach