Existential Spectacle

My thought process here is a little bit of delicious and a little bit of what dreams may come, fantasy...  

If this is a thought experiment based on practical desires I think of the ones that are in the realm of possibility, like love (maybe!?) , mindfulness, continued motivation to improve in all facets, conquering fear and anxiety, honing creativity that inspires, writing something divine or abstract, I think of desires that I dream of, like wishes. ... a variety of mind blowing sex on demand with a perfect partner, life changing orgasms, deep hearty meaningful laughs, not having to worry about money, amazing healthy food on demand, a perfect body for me - nothing crazy, deep committed love, good health, keeping my existing trustworthy friends but having them closer, unique, never ending writing skills, vast unlimited knowledge, helping those who I've always cared deeply about with whatever they'll always need, saving every needy or endangered animal I could for as long as I had a breath in my body, seeing every place in the world I've always dreamt of visiting, turning back time to really try for children before I was unable, reversing the havoc aging does on your body and then freezing that... (until you're tired of it that is) .... there's so many more, too! But deep down and in all seriousness .. I 'd only really want one thing and one thing only (I would really say fuck everything else..) if I could manifest a single deepest desire... it would undoubtedly be...  

One more day with my dad, healthy and happy.

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Thanks for the opportunity to search my conscience and spew my off the cuff instincts..
 xo.
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Its interesting that you mention the realm of possibility, B...

I think that is certainly a valid consideration...

I think that "manifesting", if I may call it such,
maybe works like a muscle...

And your muscle is toned and taught...  ;p

Having so many nuanced desires, is something
that wields much power...

I truly believe you can have the things you want!

I think this because...  Of who you are as a person...

But also...  Your inherent, latent, surfacing powers,
powers of a deep, psychic and spiritual nature...

I think such things are the keys to the magical garden...

For me, I emphasize the positive things, I think
this creates a sort of vibrancy of personal energy...

I do not lust for results...

I really think it takes a devil may care attitude...

Who fucking cares what happens...

But it is so paradoxical...  Because you can't fake that...

The cosmic, divine comedy, it is...

Your dreams are so beautiful B...

And...  It means so much that you have
shared them with me...

I think we want very similar things...

Let us...  See how our energetic construct
evolves...  And how we might compound
our individual energies, in furtherance of
our True Wills...  Which, we have of course
been doing...  Which I think is so cool...

And something I value on the level of soul....

I think it is also powerful, and beneficial
to compounded energies, that we have both
had similar life experiences...

One of which being, the passing of a beloved parent...

I think your love is very beautiful and resonates
with me, on a profound level...

I sometimes think about...

I guess...  Sort of...  Like what if something happens
to me...  Who would be there to care for me...

And then I think...  

Fuck it...  It is what it is...

I think about how my mom was there for my
dad in his last days...

How he went through so much in his life,
and how it defied the odds for him to have
someone to care for him in his last days...  Perhaps...

But then...  He had a unique gravity...

In any event, to have someone like you...

To have the love of someone like you
is a gift among gifts...

Your dad was so lucky...

And you...  To know such a love...

The more one can love the stronger one is...

That is something I think about also...

Like...  Telling people I love them...

I find there are people I want to say that to...

I just...  I guess I know of the shadows,
perhaps, and this afflicts my thoughts...

Like you....  Talking about your father...

Being brave enough to feel that...  To share that...

I think that makes the world more beautiful
and also I think...  Makes you stronger...

I see such strength and brilliance in you...

<3