The Kiss 2

Yet here i sit again.
Dwelling on my sin.
The wanting and wishing.
Another woman has seized my heart by laying her lips upon mine.
I am mentally defunct.
All i can say is W.T.F?
I should fear all women for they have so much more power over man.
It doesn't have to be sex or even a kiss.
It can be by just a simple finger touching skin.
I just can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
Everything falling apart at the seams.
I just can't believe she's shattering my heart to pieces.
Is there one fucking woman on this earth that will love me fo me?
Take me as i am in all my weirdness?
How much fucking loneliness can one man take?
Just when i thought life was showing a brighter light in my direction.
Not for me.
I should've known fucking better.
A true love story for me doesn't exist.
Everything is fucked.

My lord my God please end this heartache.

Tired of this madness.
Tired of this sadness.
Just sick of this shit.
Why did she have to whisper sweet nothings in my ear?
Telling me i had nothing to fear.
Telling me i was a sweet,kind,loving man.
Touching my hand.
Kissing my lips.
She hurt me.
Why?
Why does this happen to me?
It doesn't pay to be the sweet loving man.
It all ends in disaster for me.
2 failed marriages.
Am i just destined to live my days completely and utterly alone?
I wouldn't have to deal with this hurt if i just never opened up myself to any woman.
I'm a sucker for loving.
Need to forget it all.
No Kissing no romantic interests.
Am i cursed?
I'm so very fucked up within my heart,mind and soul.
She did something she swore she'd never do to me.
She did it any fucking way, she fucking ghosted me.
I wish nothing bad for her.
I'm just too easy to fuck with.
I guess i should've seen this coming.
I deserve this.
It's my past sins that have me cursed.
Love is not here for me.
I should've known better.
Fucking loser i am.
I give up.
Not gonna seek out a romantic relationship again.
Fuck it!!!!!