2004

Dedicated to my dad...

You were in and out of jail
I got all the letters in the mail

You never had to go
You made that choice all on your own
All I ever wanted was to know
How could you tell me you were coming
And never show?

Were all the letters you sent to me a joke?
I realize our relationship was already broke
I wanted your love but all you wanted was to smoke

Obviously, the pain you went through was rough
but don't you think it's tough how you left your daughter in the dust?
Broke our trust
Always needing to adjust
Causing me to feel disgust

You left me with your mom all alone
Waited all day long for you to just pick up the phone
I bet you felt like a king on a throne
but in reality, you let it be known
that you were nothing more than someone who pretended to be grown.

How does it feel knowing you weren't there for your daughter when she needed you the most?
Growing up thinking we were actually really close
but now you are just a ghost
Dreaming of riding together through the coast
but NO.

I refuse to let you walk through this door
Feeling as if I was just your chore
Thinking like I was just someone you could ignore

Now you want more?
I can't help but tell you there's nothing left for you anymore
You had that opportunity before
and now there's a broken heart that's left to be restored.

It's okay because I put it all in store
I wasn't the one you chose to be responsible for
I know you just weren't sure
that I was the one you could've bettered for
Just walk through the door
and tell me that you won't do this to me anymore

1994
were you even there for me when I was born in 2004?

At the time you were everything I needed and nothing more
Even when you threw me down on the floor
I knew you were the one I needed since 2004.