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Damn You
They say love hurts and they weren’t really lying I never thought you’d have any impact on my life when I first saw you.
Everything about you I at first underestimated, probably at first assumed the worst about you just like how you assumed the worst in me, but after a few stolen moments together was all it took to change our perspectives of each other.
Though that I try to deny that you aren’t my type of guy I cannot hide the fact that you make me feel everything that I haven’t felt in a long time.
Even though you already got another woman in your life I can’t help but feel so hypnotized whenever you come around my way.
I try and try to tell myself to forget about you, but everything about you makes me feel so much for you;
Damn you, for being the one man that could put a spell on me
Damn you, for making me want you more than anything in this whole wide world
Damn you, for putting me through this mental hell that I love and hate so much
Damn you, for making me want you.
Damn you, for being that sweet temptation I can’t have
Damn you, for causing me all this frustration
Damn you, for giving me that sweet sensation I always yearn for
Damn you, for making me feel oh so flustered whenever you’re around.
You’re so hard to figure out as I try to piece your personality together and read your mind like you were a tarot card reading and I’m the psychic figuring out what’s in store for our future between us.
Call me a hopeful yet also a hopeless romantic for constantly day dreaming about the day I tell you how I feel about you and you tell me you feel the same way too, but sadly in reality I know that’s all just a fantasy since you got your family and they need you more though one side of me is telling me “ I have to be with him”
The other side of me is breaking down as you live your life and choose her not realizing I was here all along wanting you this entire time.
But I’ll let you go ‘cause I know in the end your happiness matters more than mine does.
Damn you, for being the one man that could put a spell on me
Damn you, for making me want you more than anything in this whole wide world
Damn you, for putting me through this mental hell that I love and hate so much
Damn you, for making me want you.
Damn you, for being that sweet temptation I can’t have
Damn you, for causing me all this frustration
Damn you, for giving me that sweet sensation I always yearn for
Damn you, for making me feel oh so flustered whenever you’re around.
I wish I could just hold you,
I just want to hold you.
I want to be with you and feel your arms wrapped around me tightly and tell me how you feel for me.
Now I know it’s wrong and I know I shouldn’t want you this strongly but you took my breath away ever since you proved me wrong about you and showed me you were far from anyone I’ve ever met, but now I feel I have to let go now then keep carrying this pain while it’s deep inside me as I pretend each day whenever you’re around that I don’t feel these feelings for you.
Just know no matter what you’re always the reason why I smile during my worst moments, the reason why I’m able to hold my head high whenever I think I can’t so just know wherever I go I’ll always love you.
Everything about you I at first underestimated, probably at first assumed the worst about you just like how you assumed the worst in me, but after a few stolen moments together was all it took to change our perspectives of each other.
Though that I try to deny that you aren’t my type of guy I cannot hide the fact that you make me feel everything that I haven’t felt in a long time.
Even though you already got another woman in your life I can’t help but feel so hypnotized whenever you come around my way.
I try and try to tell myself to forget about you, but everything about you makes me feel so much for you;
Damn you, for being the one man that could put a spell on me
Damn you, for making me want you more than anything in this whole wide world
Damn you, for putting me through this mental hell that I love and hate so much
Damn you, for making me want you.
Damn you, for being that sweet temptation I can’t have
Damn you, for causing me all this frustration
Damn you, for giving me that sweet sensation I always yearn for
Damn you, for making me feel oh so flustered whenever you’re around.
You’re so hard to figure out as I try to piece your personality together and read your mind like you were a tarot card reading and I’m the psychic figuring out what’s in store for our future between us.
Call me a hopeful yet also a hopeless romantic for constantly day dreaming about the day I tell you how I feel about you and you tell me you feel the same way too, but sadly in reality I know that’s all just a fantasy since you got your family and they need you more though one side of me is telling me “ I have to be with him”
The other side of me is breaking down as you live your life and choose her not realizing I was here all along wanting you this entire time.
But I’ll let you go ‘cause I know in the end your happiness matters more than mine does.
Damn you, for being the one man that could put a spell on me
Damn you, for making me want you more than anything in this whole wide world
Damn you, for putting me through this mental hell that I love and hate so much
Damn you, for making me want you.
Damn you, for being that sweet temptation I can’t have
Damn you, for causing me all this frustration
Damn you, for giving me that sweet sensation I always yearn for
Damn you, for making me feel oh so flustered whenever you’re around.
I wish I could just hold you,
I just want to hold you.
I want to be with you and feel your arms wrapped around me tightly and tell me how you feel for me.
Now I know it’s wrong and I know I shouldn’t want you this strongly but you took my breath away ever since you proved me wrong about you and showed me you were far from anyone I’ve ever met, but now I feel I have to let go now then keep carrying this pain while it’s deep inside me as I pretend each day whenever you’re around that I don’t feel these feelings for you.
Just know no matter what you’re always the reason why I smile during my worst moments, the reason why I’m able to hold my head high whenever I think I can’t so just know wherever I go I’ll always love you.
Published 7th Aug 2022
Author's Note
Hi I know I haven’t been on here in a long time I’m deeply sorry I want to address the fact that due to not just my physical health after being hospitalized last year but also being depressed for a number of reasons in my personal life so I’ve been taking a long hiatus and trying to deal with everything I’m going through again I’m deeply sorry and I’ll try to post more till then please understand what I’m going through. ~ Ms Jackson
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- Edited 25th Oct 2022 6:45pm
7th Aug 2022 5:27am
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7th Aug 2022 5:35am
Well this love I felt for someone actually happened recently but unfortunately we went our separate ways so it is what it is
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- Edited 25th Oct 2022 6:45pm
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7th Aug 2022 5:39am
Well not gonna lie that person I was talking about I didn’t do anything with but he was engaged soooo… yeah that hurt lol
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7th Aug 2022 6:13am
Welcome back MsRockyJackson... so great to see your ink again... you're still amazing with the pen... and I hope everything is ok
7th Aug 2022 7:29am
Thank you for your feedback and I’ve been hanging in there both emotionally, mentally, and physically so unfortunately stuff hasn’t been that great
7th Aug 2022 10:21am
Hi girl!First of,I been wondering where you @!So happy to see you here!Listen,You don't ever have to apologize for taking time to take care of you.Myself I been gone for a while and I think it's something a number of us writers go through;The disappearing act;Whether to deal with our personal mess or writers block or whatever,,,Bottomline,so happy to see you!And you still got t!
So to the business of the day:
"....though one side of me is telling me “ I have to be with him”" Oh I know too well what you mean Miss J!Haha!Hang in there~
So to the business of the day:
"....though one side of me is telling me “ I have to be with him”" Oh I know too well what you mean Miss J!Haha!Hang in there~
7th Aug 2022 11:54am
I had many affairs with married women or otherwise engaged.
Maybe it's the Scorpio in me that led me down that path to the unavailable.... in the end you get the heartbreak. Is it worth it you wonder ? Only you know.
Damn you indeed
Damn him
Damn yourself
No judgments
It's good to see you
BIG LIKE
Maybe it's the Scorpio in me that led me down that path to the unavailable.... in the end you get the heartbreak. Is it worth it you wonder ? Only you know.
Damn you indeed
Damn him
Damn yourself
No judgments
It's good to see you
BIG LIKE
18th Aug 2022 4:04pm
Ms J
What a blessing to have your presence in this platform, you have been sorely missed.
As for your following statement, "...your happiness matters more than mine does."
All I can say is don't sell yourself short no matter what has happened in your life thus far.
There's always night before dawn and darkness is chased away by the sun.
Nobody can take away the pain you are feeling so hopefully when ready your day will come to live a life of gratitude.
Sometimes a loss of love is like a death that just occurred the two may not be the same but it's not easy to get over them.
As a mature, beautiful and good person there's no doubt in my mind that better days are upon you, Your Ladyship.
What a blessing to have your presence in this platform, you have been sorely missed.
As for your following statement, "...your happiness matters more than mine does."
All I can say is don't sell yourself short no matter what has happened in your life thus far.
There's always night before dawn and darkness is chased away by the sun.
Nobody can take away the pain you are feeling so hopefully when ready your day will come to live a life of gratitude.
Sometimes a loss of love is like a death that just occurred the two may not be the same but it's not easy to get over them.
As a mature, beautiful and good person there's no doubt in my mind that better days are upon you, Your Ladyship.
7th Oct 2022 9:29am
Your command of language makes me feel like I am reading the lyrics of a blues classic. My perception is so much authenticity I almost want to pick up my instrument and play.
