Rebuilding

How do you bounce back from such a devastating defeat
She's saying no and stuck on repeat
Your offense and defense both not working
You're racking heart and mind but separation is lurking

I've been everything from a SOB to a fucking liar
If she had a match, she'ld set me on fire
I'm disgusting and should die for what I do
But my only sin has been my determination to love you

You have absolutely no idea what it takes to keep this up
Dedicating both heart and mind, knowing there's no trust
But you are mine built by cosmic design
Our love goes beyond the body and mind

To accuse me of others is a pure fabrication
I've been here before, I've faced temptation
You think that I'm a pursuer of various sensations
But it's your insecurities that are causing this devastation

You claim that it's only pain that I'm bringing you
And I'm claiming that your torment is still true
Constantly asking why did I choose you
You can't ask the sun why it rises, it does what it do

We're like kids in a tug of war over a ball
Each unwilling to bulge when it comes to our love
For what is love based on stipulations
But an emotionless farce prepped for manipulation

The cosmos has sworn that you are my destination
We are just building on the wrong foundation
If we make each brick and add a little love
This time our relation will be blessed by the great up above