"tug of war"

      
       
       
internally; externally.... an "unending tug of war" within every single species.... dear "god"  why does the body fight so hard to stay where it's eventually ceased, and the mind wants to desperately leave?      
       
       
       
I see walls, teeth and claws.... cause for withdrawals.... hurt buried deep...." too much" or lack of sleep....      
       
       
       
.... dear "god".... why? why did you create us/me this way? being pushed and pulled simultaneously....