Longing

I convinced myself
That you stayed
Because you wanted
To be with me

I stayed too
Believing that love
Swayed you
Even though you never
Said it
Because actions
Speak LOUDER
Than words

But you have been looking
In all sorts of places
Your eyes are set
In someone other than me
You just have not found
My replacement
…yet

I should leave
But I stay
I want to see it through
I want you
To face my pain

I know
What people will say
But I will be ok
Nothing has ever gone
My way
I know how to lose
& all I have lost today
Was this blindfold

When you find
That I hold you a little closer
I am simply holding you
The way you wish to hold
…her