fascination

 
I am confounded
there is a truth in front of me and I'm missing it
my love for you is not enough
I'm a broken person in this life
perhaps even when the fire was lit from the spark that is me
maybe broken then too

I may exist only to mock your existence
an implement of pain
I wonder was it ever considered the knife would fall in love with the flesh
my soul aches with yours
I need you in my depths
are you a mirage or another form of torture
to look and never have
I have touched you and you have touched me

do you want me to tell you what I see?

I see you peering at me
looking into my soul tasting me
I know you laughed at my nakedness
I know I was a sport of sorts
you hadn't planned on loving me
and it hurts that you do

you didn't plan that in looking in I would see your reflection
that you would open a doorway for me to crossover
already knowing your most intimate of thoughts

I am all together different than any you have encountered
if you are a God understand this, I am already taken
I feel you peer into my being and wonder
what manner of soul I am
I would not have you suffer in pursuit of me
but I have a feeling you already have

I am a broken being time traveling through space
I fell in love with a story once
and my soul got trapped here
I am captivated by your fascination with me