mortality

 
 
 
 
    dark(as in constant thoughts about death), pessimistic, yet a need for peace;  
    overall depressed;  
    life does that to you....  
 
      
    energy drained faster than gained;  
    urges, and yearnings come and go;  
    one's supposed to be used to that though....  
 
      
     as time fades; so does one's enthusiasm;  
     and if you knew/met me in real life,  
     my energy is almost always mellow, or tired, or fatigued.... but I'm only 30....and what does that really mean?