Unknown Caller

Phone rings
Unknown number
Fuck that shit for disturbing my slumber
But I answer .. fuck why not ?
Some one calling at this time needs me or
They've lost the plot
Familiar voice down the line ,
Fuck
It was the latter ,
Dosnt matter ,
as she spoke my heart sunk
Memories sponging in like oil in batter.

She's drunk again , this happened only a few months ago ,
I say "why you buzzing me ? You should leave me alone ,Plus We discussed that we would never again be in contact , had
Something to do with ya partner writing your contract ,
She says he been cheating ? I'm like "how's that my problem ?
Everytime you enter my life chaos comes knocking .
Plus I got my own shit to deal with I don't need the dramas , you abused me and lied to me , you started the fire "
...I hang up ... fuck
Now I feel like a cunt
I wanted to call back but that would be dumb...
So now I'm lying awake , worried about her self abuse ,
I wouldn't date her again , I know that nothing is new ,
But this churn in my chest
Well Of course I still care ,
But inside I know she wanted to use me again
It's not fair ....

-U53L355