Lustful deeds

I thought it was love.
I know it was lust.
Now i see a bi polar bitch, you can't trust.
I answered the door smiles on both our faces
Next thing we're kissing in a naked embrace.
I'm kissing her neck, my fingers in her pussy.
She's hella wet, now my face is buried.
Buried in between the lips on hips.
Slowly i licked her pussy, at a snails pace.
I savored the flavor not treating this as a rat race.
Next thing i know she has a tight grip on my head.
Her body convulsing, then still like the dead.
I ask her if she wants my dick.
She says "hell yes,baby. Give me that dick."
Slowly i glide my rock hard dick into her soakin wet slit.
Slowly fuckin & gazing at her beautiful big tits.
Around 30 minutes later i feel my cock pulsating.  
Less than 30 seconds in her wet pussy i was ejaculating.
We cleaned up. I go get us dinner.
As we're eating dinner all i think about is going back down and lickin her.
20 minutes later, I'm right back eating her gushy mushy wet fuckin pussy.
Convulsing once again as she creams all on my face.
 Then comes the clean up, and dr.fuckin jekyll and miss hyde show up in that place.  
Geezus fucking holy goddamn shit.
How the fuck can you one minute be in complete extacy? Then be face to face with a psycho bitch?
Never in my life have i been nervous for my life after layin inside a bitch a hard dick.
She switched up on me so fuckin fast.
I knew i needed to stay cool try to diffuse the situation before this bitch killed my mfkn ass.
Slowly but surely she gets dressed and leaves.
I locked the hotel room door, thankful i fulfilled hers and mines needs.
And escaped with my life.
I take this shit as a sign that i need to abandon these lustful wicked deeds. Right?