the trip was better left untravelled

You walk in like deja vu
drugs in your veins
gang violence on your tongue
and all I can think of  
is how badly I want to bail
out of this trip  
down memory lane  
 
You steal my phone  
record the conversation  
of his arrest  
while you try and talk  
him out of getting shot  
 
It doesn't matter that we're not there
the tension in the room is knifeable
and I'm not gonna lie
but I find it ironic you can get
so wrapped up in drama of a man
that treats you so badly  
regardless of how good the sex is  
 
Not that I can talk  
when I've been in similar shoes  
caught up with people  
my life would have been better without  
but the excitement of the addiction  
kept me going back  
even when I knew I deserved more
 
You walk in like deja vu
drugs in your veins
gang violence on your tongue
and all I can think of  
is how badly I want to bail
out of this trip  
down memory lane  
 
You give my phone back  
battery spent
private arrest video recorded  
and the relief  
nobody was shot tonight  
 
© Indie Adams 2022