Each Time

each time
he arrives to

hurt me
or
pleasure me

(i never know which)

(does it matter?)

each time
he leaves

i wait
alone in darkness

craving his return
yearning for him to

hurt me
or
pleasure me

sometimes
for moments

sometimes
for hours

sometimes
i don't perceive

difference
between
pain and pleasure

each
sends me
to a special place

balanced
between
two precipices

pain
and
pleasure

each dangerous

each enticing

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