untitled no.1

Emotionless eruption

seduced in the snugness of
feeling nothing

I shrug this suffocation
as if im able to breathe
but really I can't retrieve what's left.

My mind is a scattered mess
like a maze with no end,
each turn getting sharper and sharper
each thought gets darker and darker..

This being harbors fear and shame
unable to stay awake..
I want to rid my soul of
all the broken hopeless poems,
the dreading of every decision,
the visions of destabilization
when a realization hits so hard
when reality slips and the ego can't get a grip..

Emotionless eruption
like lava.. my lust for experience is flowing fast
 and leaves my spirit in flames.
Mental state disrupted and strained
as if abducted in a strange game of seduction..
Where have I gone to? and where have I been?
the image isn't clear

A distant dream in a realm not so near.