little old lady suffers with his addiction

this little old lady is so scared,

day by day she sits in her recliner,

watching the demons (diminsha) she suffers with surround her home,

all she wants is for him to come home,

but he has to pay,

pay for the actions of his addiction,

she prays and prays that he will change,

knowing that it will take a disaster to stop this cycle,

she sits in her chair and thinks of the little boy he used to be,

so playful,

so kind,

so innocent,

but everyone knew he had a problem,

maybe it stared with his lies ,

or maybe it was his abusive out breaks,

he always hide every problem so well,

untill the needle reaches his arm,

the old lady cries out ,

"oh father why cant you make it better I didnt want this life for him",

the old fragile lady  has been so strong for these years,

she is beginning to break ,

she cant take much more ,

but she still fights for him ,

over and over ,

giving this boy as much as she can ,

she would die for him ,

everyday she thinks of how he

use to hold her hand and never leave her side ,

she thinks of how he could make her demons (diminshia) go away,

when hes there her problems go away,

and finally the end of his sentence comes around ,

shes so happy ,

she cant stop thinking of how

wonderful everything will be,

when she seems him she glows and cries with joy,

he promises to be better and straighten up,

that night he put his greatgrandmother to bed ,

went into his room  and searched for that needle,

so ashamed he hide in the closet ,

he goes back in his cell untill 2012,

and the old lady cant stop from

wondering what she did wrong,