Painful days

Somedays I just smile to get by in this world
because there are days where I feel like shit
Their are times I feel like I am here but not really here
Days where people don’t see me or even recognize me
I have my days where I feel like I’m by myself
Where it’s me against this entire planet.
I have my days where I am fighting my demons and my past
Even have days where I struggle to connect with someone
Many times I feel like I have days where I am disconnected from everything
Where I am not plugged in with anyone
Often, I have days where I feel like unplugging myself from this world
Cause the world never plugged in with me
Many times I feel like I walk alone among the masses
Cause I have no one beside me
I even have my days where I feel so alone
It’s why some days are very painful and others are down right miserable
But through it all, I just skate by the skin of my teeth
I just smile, wave and push on when everything is so painful
It’s why my pain is something most will never bear
It’s even why I don’t show my pain cause it’s painful to see
Which is why I hide my pain behind my smile and keep on going.
I keep going and fight this pain on my own
All I ever hope for is a day where I can be pain free