anxiety shift

 
lingering in the shadows...doubt
taking bites out of my pride, eating me alive
little leaches draining me of my essence
sinister feelings, like you're not good enough
 
I talk tough and push past it
it comes around pushing harder
dragging me deeper into the bleak
I scream it comes out a sqeak  
 
all my  fears surround me
I look at my enemies
their faces elongate and shift
small monsters turn into giants
I'm in too deep I can't hack it
my voices sing in unison...give up
 
I hurt my anxiety climbs
turning up the dread
I seek asylum inside a brand new hell
addictions chain me to the wall
while my low self esteem tag teams me
with new demons to kill