Desperate soul

I'm so tired
I can't sleep
How endless is the night
Staying alone in the dark
With the shadows whispering to me

I'm so sad
I can't feel
I have a void in my heart
The so called sadness is no sadness for me
The world seeing only what they want to see
even though it's a lie

I'm so quiet
I can't talk
Nobody understands my words
So I stopped trying
To make others hear my pain,
The one that consumes the inside of me

I'm so dead
I can't move
I don't have a soul
I just live to die again and again
Everyday
With only pain inside me
A desperate feeling for freedom

I'm so hurt
I can't love
My dead heart is not beating
Only standing useless inside me
Desperately whispering
Dead

I'm so tired
So I close my eyes
And dark greets me hugging me whole
While talking me away

~sm