wounded heart/ headache & heartache(mental thoughts)

  
 
   
   
    numbing oneself is what I do. numbing is the only way i can cope....    
   
   
     when I hear about people who've turned to lethal drugs; I get it....  
   
   
   tired of it all; wanting to get out of their mind and what ever feelings are there....  
   
   
    anything with extreme side effects, like severe suffering is the only thing that keeps one away....  
   
   
  overthinking; emotions that take its toll; weed helps but, no reliable source....  
   
   
   if I had some strong weed; it really helps not to give a damn and make one feel good.... that's what I need.... some damn weed *sighs* smh  
 
 
the only fair enough alternative, in this mad world