To Be Numb in a World Full of Feeling

I stare off into space
Not the space above
But the space in front of me
That somehow seems more devoid

This feeling comes and goes
Always leaving me wondering
Questioning why do I have to feel this way

Almost like the world is too much
My brain cannot process it all
I have to stop – do nothing – feel nothing
Just to start again – reset – take in the world again

But it’s not really a reset
More like a faulty wire
Making the light flicker at random moments
Agonizing if and when the wire finally breaks