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I deserve to suffer

For a while I danced as if I were free and then I saw that there was only me
I couldn’t breathe or move at all as desolation crushed and darkness pulled
No better am I than any other, if anything worse than any lover
So perhaps this is justice and I deserve to suffer. I deserve to suffer?

Sometimes a space is too big to fill, regardless of effort, endeavour or will
I try to draw light into the canyon but still it is empty, lonely and barren
Where does the light go, if anything to others I know?
So perhaps this is justice and I deserve to suffer. I deserve to suffer?

If this is a test, I admonish now that I am doomed to falter, doomed to fail
I know of no reprieve for my malevolent actions, I should be whole but I am fractions
And I was to serve at least I believe, but can I ever leave?
So perhaps this is justice and I deserve to suffer. I deserve to suffer?

Sometimes the one tasked with a role is poorly cast and pitiful
Perhaps knowledge, insight, wisdom or life would have been a better wife
Is there light within, I only see flaws and in place of openings I see closed doors
So perhaps this is justice and I deserve to suffer. I deserve to suffer just like my mother.
Written by Aurore
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