Our Sharp Edges Collide

I laid down beside you trying to get right with myself,
  found no peace but I dug up a lot of doubt
Never understood why this life seems so hollow,
   or how I’m meant to divide my future from our past now
I find comfort in our bond
   but I expect this lust to depart eventually
I know I should think different
   but it’s all I’ve ever seen and how things always end

The nights we spent in bed felt like heaven,
   yet nothing could silence the hell in our heads
I thought of you as all I prayed for,
   until my insecurity caught the best of me
It opened my eyes but I’d sooner be blind
   than accept the lifelessness in a love from two people who’re weak
Unable to fill proper roles for each other
   when we’ve yet to mend the wounds inside ourselves

If only I’d poured my heart out to you sooner,
   as opposed to slamming your door for the final time
I’ve done my best not to live in regret
   but now I see so many signs I wish I didn’t miss
The passing of blame and days without discussion
   should’ve let me know, you’d never loved me in return
They told me I could never change a man without desire,
   but I let the heaviness in my chest change me

In every instance, your body said yes
   and your words reaffirmed
So, I excused your distance and empty promises,
   when your actions towards me screamed NO