Forewarning Language content, terrible grammar, just some random words on a page

Started smokeing just to show
smoking led to new friends
and new friends led to dro,
the high is wavering just like my mind
all so close now its just a matter of time
before im consumed, in the darkness that follows
Fear life so much scared for tomorrow.
the weed leads to coke, meth and the dope
my pockets are broke, my parents say nope
start filling my addiction
with loratabs and riddlin
soon that wasnt enough, to get away from home
i started taking some of those... methadone
my blood rushed, my head swelled
but behind my eyes is where the pain dwells
put on a front, for people that dont
trying to prove something to these cunts
they dont deserve the time of day
fuck this shit i suck at poems anyway