Painful Joy

I sat alone all day with no one but me
Nothing got done but very few tears were shed
When you come near I sense what no one else can see
My love is very alive yet my faith is dead
Our us has been broken but there is still a ‘we’
As you walk by all I can feel is the way your heart bled
The lock to our hearts is broken but we still hold the key
I’m happy we are over, I could take no more
I know you begged and yes, you did plea
We will both miss our presence but I am filled with joy
The love we gave was not enough
Our ‘us’ was put to rest but we didn’t destroy
It hurts to say goodbye and it’s going pretty rough
But my smile keeps growing, no longer is it a decoy
This pain is my reassuring joy