Dear God

Dear God:

I hate myself!
I hate my life!
I hate this world!
 
Why is life worth living?
What's the point of it all?
Why am I here?
Why do I still care?

I don't care!
Go away!
Leave me alone!
Stop telling me what to do!
Stop preventing me from doing what I want to do!

I don't want to be here!
I want to go home!
I want to be free!
I want to be happy!
I want to not fear!
I want to not cry!

Please let me leave!
Please take me away!
Please bring me to heaven,  
I don't want to stay!  
Please lift the burdens I'm too tired to keep.
Please take my sadness, sorrow, and pain!

I know that you love me!
I know that you care!
I know I'm forgiven!
I know that's all true...
Then why do I feel this way?
What's in it for me?
What's in it for you?
How do I get better?
What do I do?

I need you now Lord!
Please show me the way!
I need your guidance, your wisdom, your grace!
Please lend me your courage, your hope, and your strength.
Please help me dear God,
Where are you today?