Will he understand

Waving goodbye
to essence of moral,
had i sealed my chance
and blocked my only escape?
If the balance
is heavy against me,
will i walk in circles
forever more.
If i fail this life,
and fail my heart,
could i be the victor
worthy of redemption?
I have been unjust,
but unjust to.
Loved so hard,
and loved the hard,
but hard was a game
i often lost.

Is there a justice
for all i am?
For all i am
is another dying child.

Death will accept me,
but will he understand.