Settling On Heartbreak

I am not perfect by any means,
but I am worthy of being loved.

Respect is a ground you should walk heavy upon when a conversation is taking place.

See there is so much more than you and I that came from the days with you.

Bonds built in the hell you put me through.

I took on four more then I birthed,
every second,
every minute I loved them as my own. The best parts of you, a reminder of the good in you thats fading worlds.

I knew I'd cry tears for you,

I just didn't realize the extent you'd go to keep the tears seeping and boiling in the cracks of my heart.

Now I have to tell the walls that we built together that were out of stones so that they may crumble along with me and you.

The worst part is trying to tell my soul its over ;
when it's still very much in love with a man that I once knew.

How to tell a heart that love is fleeing, how to stop it from seeing what seizes to exist.
How to bare it decaying in my chest.

I know to much of fire,
and the way that it dies out.
Know so much of starving,
the way it screams and shouts,
but perhaps knowing is my purpose,
to be chewed up and spit out.

How to keep from reaching for you, when nights are corse and bare,
how to light a match on all that I put here.

Maybe once you've watched me crawling from this sore;
you will bleed in shades of auburn cross legged on the floor,
maybe then you will remember all that brought us to this door.

Wilted petals on poisoned puppet strings,
wasted time, common fear and love ordained.

Hem me up to rip apart,
the wounds of this ordeal,

to love a ghost
is to to love a man,
to love a wolf,
to love the moon,
to love the pain,
to fear the sound,
to hate the rain as it pours down.

I am enough,
you are blind.
I was indetructable,
but trampled in your wake.

I can hide myself away in the wreckage letting hell rush in to kill the love I have for you and bury it within.

You my love were the best of me,
taught me to value all my demons. Taught me that life is beautiful even if just for minutes.

You my love are the worst of me, surfacing premonition,
nothing stays,
everything goes,
Disappears,
no matter what you put in it.