Alone

I try and tell myself ...
' You're not alone. "

Yet when I lay in bed at night
My sadness envelops me
Rather than my blankets.
My head is propped up
By a million thoughts
Rather than my pillow.
The weight of my chest
Feels like a mattress
Is on top
Rather than below.

What I know is ...

That when I sit up and look around,
The only person I see
Is me.
And the only person who cares
Is me.
And the only person who understands
Is me.

        And
       Damn ...
    I am alone.