high risk

 
 
 
        do you know what it's like; to feel cut off from the rest of the world....  
 
 
         stability in question with each passing day.... any given day; far from ok....  
 
 
   feeling like yet another high risk statistic; waiting to happen any day now or even within minutes....  
 
 
feeling finished; unable to hold on to one's mind.... wanting to drop everything and just fall to the waste side....  
 
a reoccurring mental torture.... makes me feel I'd rather die.... like life for some(myself) isn't worth the fight....  
 
   
  getting "checked" is a waste of time; when one's mind feels committed to not wanting to be "alive"....